I wake up earlier than my family because I have to make the bottle for my child at around 7:30am. It is not so early for some but then again I am usually the last one to go to bed because I have online stuff to do.
You see I am a stay at home mom taking care of my two-year-old darling daughter, but I also have an offline and an online job to take care of. I do this to augment the family income, although most of the time, this is really our bread and butter.
I take care of my child because I have no yaya or maid. I clean the room, the toilet and bath, and do administrative work like pay bills, budget the money or the lack thereof, do grocery, deposit, withdraw, etc. Sometimes I think that I do a haphazard work in everything because I am a jack of all trades and master of none. Sometimes I think that sleep should not be part of life so that I can do more things. This is because it seems to me that I need more sleep than most people. While most adults can function with a 6-hour per night sleep, my bestest self would be from taking 9-hour sleeps. And I should not be awaken suddenly, because then I would get a headache (which of course is usually the case, because I don’t live in a sound proof home you know).
I am just thankful that I still live with my in-laws. Our laundry is taken care of and at least I no longer have to prepare food or do marketing. We are just called to it. I think I would get crazy if I will have to handle all that.
I am not exactly complaining, I guess I just needed encouragement to go on. I can get so tired, my back aches, I am smelly, fat, and ugly. And I am not pregnant. I am tired and desperately want a massage. But that would cost money and time–two things that are a luxury to me.
I need a massage and sleep…
I don’t have a problem with being a homemaker, I just wish that I have more budget to do so and not have to work and take money making as a problem. I would love taking care of the home and my child and not be bothered by money issues.