There are certain times in a month that I feel really cranky, moody, weepy, and just plain b*tchy. Sometimes I attribute it to hormones due to PMS. But a lot of months, I don’t get my period because I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). So I wonder, why do I get so moody?
Hubby and I used to fight whenever I have these episodes. He feels it is unnecessary for me to be mean during these days. In the past, I would fight it out with him, telling him that I couldn’t control these moods of mine. Then eventually, I realized that I do not really have to be controlled by them. While the moodiness is there, it doesn’t mean that I have to act on it and vent out my frustrations on the people around me.
Anyway, a couple of years ago, we met a new friend who said that whenever the moon is full, she gets depressed. This was echoed by another friend in the same gathering who feels the same. I never really gave what they said a lot of thought and eventually forgot. After all, I thought that although much eeriness is associated with the full moon, I didn’t think that mood swing was part of it.
But after that revelation, I still keep getting bouts of crankiness at certain times that will drive me to the point of neurosis. I get short-tempered and prone to shout at my daughter or just fight with my husband. It is also very easy for me to get irritated with things and people or even news articles even if I am not related to them. And then when I lie down on my side of the bed facing the window after an exhausting day of battling with my feelings, I see the full moon glaring down at me. And I am like, whaattt??
This has happened every month that I am not quite convinced that the full moon has quite that effect on me. I mentioned it to my OB-Gyne and she said that there are just some “lunar” people or those that get affected by the moon. Last Thursday and Friday, I was my cranky self again and hubby said that he knows why. I asked him why but he made me promise that I will not get mad as I was already high-strung. He reminded me that those days were the full moon and that it was even the Mooncake Festival. And I am like, whaaat??? Not again!
But I guess it does happen, whether I am aware if it is the full moon or not. How about you? Do you also experience this? So far, I have known of only four people including myself who get affected by the moon. Please do tell me. 😀